Doing everything

Rebecca, my Amma practitioner, had the idea of worrying for only 15 minutes
and then being done with worrying for the day. (Worrying, in this case, is
really a codeword for obsessing about, well, all the things that moms
obsess about). Sounds good doesn't it? I was going to do that but that
was 30+ minutes ago. I got sucked into reading email. Then into doing
“urgent” tasks. Sigh.

When I get like this the thoughts go round and round so fast I can’t keep
up. I would love to be blogging this. I ought to update my blog. I
should post to it more regularly. (Why? For others? Hmmm.). Thinking
about blogging makes me remember that I'm blogging with a friend about a
book we want to write, which makes me want to work on that. Thinking about
working on our book makes me want to contact my friend and all my
clients. Thinking about my clients makes me want to work on
business....there must be a mouse and a cookie in here somewhere.

So what to worry about? I have a week between Christmas and New year and
it feels like I should do all the things I haven’t done this year in this
week. I simultaneously want to get my house all clean, relax and enjoy my
crafts and hobbies, work on my business, call all my friends, spend quality
time with my family, catch up on paperwork, make all kinds of yummy food to
stock the freezer for school days….well…I’m sure there is more but we all
get the picture.

And of course, what I really “should” be doing is just being thankful to be
here unhurt. My reality check – that all this other stuff is just not
important enough to stress over – lasted exactly 3 days. Does that make
me ungrateful?

Why do I do this to myself? What is “special” about this week that makes
me want to get everything in the world done?

Ok, off to spend the last 10 minutes of quality worrying time with my todo
list.